So I survived yet another semester (though I'm sure I lost quite a few brain cells in the process) despite all the emotional craziness going on in my life and the horrors of the wretched book entitled the Aeneid (if you're a diehard fan of this book then I truly don't mean to offend you, but this thing made a nerd like me want to drop out of college. Just saying....). Following my completion of this agonizing err educational experience that has resulted in lasting benefits for my life (at least it'd better considering how much I paid for it) I spent about a week vacationing from the normal stressful thoughts of my life. However, seeing as how it's me (and if you know anything about me you'll know that I get stressed about such things as what to have for dinner and whether or not someone despises my guts due to his/her not having texted me back in a five-minute time period), my vacation from stress-city was incredibly short-lived. I soon became swept into a spiral of concern over money (I live on my own now and pay my own bills and have determined from this that being a grown-up is incredibly overrated), whether or not I was doing enough to get accepted into graduate school (which is still two years away btw), and the responses of other people to me in my life (never mind that I virtually have no control over such a factor...).
Everytime I get swept into such a spiral, I tend to unintentionally disregard the fact that God is in control and He pretty much has to slap me across the face to get the point across. For instance, about a week ago an old song that has some personal meaning for me regarding to this issue came to my mind, and I thought, "well hmm that's interesting. but oh well. I guess I just randomly thought of it", and then went about my business. Well, a few hours later, I was on the way to work and this song (that is several years old and I literally haven't heard on the radio in months) comes blasting on just when I'm about to get out of the car. I was quite shocked to say otherwise. Yes, you might call it a coincidence, but it really impacted me and I consider it a message straight from God (like I said, I'm a tough person to calm down...).
If that wasn't enough, a few days later I was sitting in the laundromat doing my laundry (yes, I'm too poor to have a washer/dryer in my apt...ain't nobody got money for that..) and this random middle-aged man came over and sat down next to me and commented that he'd seen me at church. Fortunately I remembered seeing him there or else I probably would have run for the hills, laundry done or not, seeing as how I'd never talked to this man a day before in my life and I couldn't think of a non-suspicious reason for him to be randomly talking to me....Anyways, he started telling me about some of his experiences in life, how his faith in God had opened doors for him that he never could have opened for himself, and how if one trusts in God, God will use you right where you are and will provide for you. I was pretty blown away to say the least, and told that that was exactly what I needed to hear today. He responded with, "Yeah I felt that God wanted me to come over and talk to you today..." After that, I went from being pretty to completely blown away. After all, I'd strongly considered not even doing my laundry that day and had decided to go in on a last second whim. Having a total stranger speak to me on a topic that had been bothering me for weeks completely amazed me and was exactly the slap in the face that I needed from Heaven above. God truly does work in mysterious ways...
So no, I doubt that I'll ever completely be a stress-free, happy-go-lucky individual who thinks only thoughts of sunshine and roses for the rest of her days. However, I've truly been taught this week that stress is absolutely pointless when one is a follower of God. The Bible promises that "in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28). As long as we as God's children are willing to serve Him and to put Him first in our lives, He's going to get us through life and use us right where we are. Yes, struggles and unfortunate things are going to happen in life, but God can bring good out of even the worst of situations and if we trust Him, He's going to get us through. He cares about every little thing that happens in your life and wants to help you and get you through your struggles. So instead of stressing and trying to control everything, we need to pray, give all the control to God, and do the best we can with what we're given. If that isn't a winning life philosophy to live by, I don't know what is....
Friday, May 31, 2013
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Hannah the Psychologist
Well okay....so the title is a bit of a lie. I'm actually more like a secretary for a psychologist. But hey, yours truly will be a psychologist herself in......4 years....6 years...a whole heck of a lot more years.....okay yeah it's gonna be a while but if I don't think about the length maybe I won't notice it (a person can dream right?) Anyways, while I am suffering through....err.....thoroughly enjoying my never-ending educational experience, working at an office as a humble secretarial assistant shall have to suffice. Honestly, the job is really not that bad. It's actually sort of epic when you think about how much you can discover about people just by sitting at a desk. For instance, some people appear to have gotten the impression that I exist as a (completely free) extension of their current psychological service. Either they perceive me to be a particularly nice person who will empathize with their problems or they're just bored as heck waiting on their appointment and find talking to me a little more interesting than listening to the clock tick. Whatever the reason, I have heard countless tales of family drama, medication nightmares, bipolar moments, and the list goes on....The awesome part is, all I have to do for this wonderful experience in my future field is sit there, nod, listen with wide, interested eyes, and interject an occasional word of wisdom. Hey if my job's gonna be that easy then who needs all these years of educational nightmare?? haha just kidding. Being a psychologist is no walk in the park so don't get any ideas about that one....Anyhow, being able to talk to a variety of people and hear about all kinds psychological subjects from my boss makes this job absolutely perfect for the psychology nerd that I am. Not to mention, being the only employee at this office, I once received a fax that was addressed to the "Office Manager" (aka me) which made me feel super important and puffed my ego up more than it probably should have.
Despite the awesomeness of this job, it does have its rather non-glamorous aspects. For instance, while at this job, I have experienced lifting boxes crammed with patient folders from the top of an incredibly tall closet (without breaking my back or my face I might add), washing dishes with a very old, very stained paintbrush (not my brightest moment), falling asleep at the desk and jumping about fifty million feet when the phone rang next to my ear drum (only happened once though so don't judge me...I was one sick individual at the time....), attempting to fix a rather large printer (and almost chopping off my finger in the process), and staring at the computer for so long that I literally wanted to gouge my eyes out. But, in the end, none of those things matter seeing as how this has been the absolute perfect job for me and it was a miracle I even got it at all. After all, I got this job with no previous secretarial experience and had absolutely NO idea what I was doing for at least 2 months in. Heck, I wouldn't have even hired me. But, over two years later, I haven't been canned yet and I'm incredibly thankful :) It's been quite an interesting experience, that's for sure, and one of these days (if I survive graduate school that is) I'll be the psychologist myself and I MIGHT even give you a discount if you show up and tell me that you read all my blogs faithfully and never missed a one ;) We'll just have to see ;)
Despite the awesomeness of this job, it does have its rather non-glamorous aspects. For instance, while at this job, I have experienced lifting boxes crammed with patient folders from the top of an incredibly tall closet (without breaking my back or my face I might add), washing dishes with a very old, very stained paintbrush (not my brightest moment), falling asleep at the desk and jumping about fifty million feet when the phone rang next to my ear drum (only happened once though so don't judge me...I was one sick individual at the time....), attempting to fix a rather large printer (and almost chopping off my finger in the process), and staring at the computer for so long that I literally wanted to gouge my eyes out. But, in the end, none of those things matter seeing as how this has been the absolute perfect job for me and it was a miracle I even got it at all. After all, I got this job with no previous secretarial experience and had absolutely NO idea what I was doing for at least 2 months in. Heck, I wouldn't have even hired me. But, over two years later, I haven't been canned yet and I'm incredibly thankful :) It's been quite an interesting experience, that's for sure, and one of these days (if I survive graduate school that is) I'll be the psychologist myself and I MIGHT even give you a discount if you show up and tell me that you read all my blogs faithfully and never missed a one ;) We'll just have to see ;)
Friday, January 4, 2013
Faith in prayer
Over the past few months, I've become caught up in a situation that I'm pretty sure God has wanted me to be in. Yeah, okay, I want to be in it myself too, but I really felt like God has been guiding me through this and has had me going through this for a very good reason. Well, recently I've hit a huge giant wall in this situation that has really got me discouraged and questioning what exactly God wants me to do about it.When I hit roadblocks with this before and prayed about it, God always gave me some kind of encouragement or sign to keep going (and things were going pretty darn well). Over the past few weeks, though, I've prayed and prayed (and prayed some more) about this and really nothing has gotten better. I'm still stuck with no answers and no clue about what to do about it.....
Such discouragement, however painful, serves as a good reminder to me of the importance of keeping faith in God and His plans, even when I have no clue what He's up to. Yeah, it's super super hard not to want to get really mad, stop praying, and just give up seeking God's will and do whatever the heck I want to do in the situation. However, I've come to the realization that it's at times like this when you have to pray and trust God more than ever before. After all, that's what faith's really all about. Faith wouldn't mean a thing if I could see ahead and know exactly how this situation's gonna work out. Rather, authentic faith occurs when you're in the dark and you have no idea what's going to happen. "Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." (love that quote by MLK Jr.), which means that we must not let doubt or fear prevent us from living our lives. Rather, we must live with the assurance that, if we trust God and seek His will, He's going to work everything out for our good (even if we can't see what He's doing right this very minute).
So yes, I'm extremely downhearted right now and have no idea where this situation is going and how things are going to turn out. But the one thing I do know is that giving up on God and prayer is not the answer. The Bible speaks numerous time on the power of prayer and how God will never ignore those who call upon His name. Some of my favorites: "I am praying to you because I know you will answer, O God. Bend down and listen as I pray." (Psalm 17:6), "So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most." (Hebrews 4:16), "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7). No, the Bible doesn't promise that we will get everything we want, right here, right now, when we pray. After all, just as a parent doesn't grant all of their child's wishes (because children often do not know what is best for them), God is not going to grant all of our wishes as He knows full well that some of our requests would prove detrimental to us later down the road. Also, God's timing is not our own. Something we pray for now may not become resolved for months down the road. I have an incredibly difficult time with God's timing as I have rather low levels of patience (never would have thought that of me, right? ;) ) and I give up on things/situations rather easily. However, one thing God has surely taught me over these past few years is to NEVER give up praying for things that are important to you (as God answered a prayer very dear to my heart nearly a year after I started praying for it). Thus, I must remember to never give up on prayer as prayer often proves more powerful than we could ever realize. I often compare prayers to planting seeds in a garden. You plant seeds and care for them for many months until they bloom into new life (just as, oftentimes, you must consistently pray for something before God provides the answer you seek).
I could go on and on about this topic, but seeing as how you probably don't have all day to read my blog (though I'm sure you wish you did) I'll wrap things up with a wonderful quote I found by Oswald Chambers
“We have to pray with our eyes on God, not on the difficulties.” In other words, instead of worrying all the time about the troubles of life and dwelling on the negatives, we must lift our eyes to God and trust that, if we seek His will earnestly and never give up coming to Him, He will answer our prayers. No, He may not give us the answer we want, but He WILL get us through the situation and will provide for us in ways far more wonderful than we could have imagined for ourselves. Scripture reminds us that, "in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28). Thus, I have to remember to keep trusting that God will work out this struggle in my life for His glory and for my ultimate good. I've seen God work miracles in this situation previously, so the only smart thing left to do is to let go, do the best I can, trust, and pray and see what God does. After all, I have no clue what the heck I'm doing in life most of the time and God hasn't failed me yet in seeing me through. So, I don't think He's going to start failing me now......
Such discouragement, however painful, serves as a good reminder to me of the importance of keeping faith in God and His plans, even when I have no clue what He's up to. Yeah, it's super super hard not to want to get really mad, stop praying, and just give up seeking God's will and do whatever the heck I want to do in the situation. However, I've come to the realization that it's at times like this when you have to pray and trust God more than ever before. After all, that's what faith's really all about. Faith wouldn't mean a thing if I could see ahead and know exactly how this situation's gonna work out. Rather, authentic faith occurs when you're in the dark and you have no idea what's going to happen. "Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." (love that quote by MLK Jr.), which means that we must not let doubt or fear prevent us from living our lives. Rather, we must live with the assurance that, if we trust God and seek His will, He's going to work everything out for our good (even if we can't see what He's doing right this very minute).
So yes, I'm extremely downhearted right now and have no idea where this situation is going and how things are going to turn out. But the one thing I do know is that giving up on God and prayer is not the answer. The Bible speaks numerous time on the power of prayer and how God will never ignore those who call upon His name. Some of my favorites: "I am praying to you because I know you will answer, O God. Bend down and listen as I pray." (Psalm 17:6), "So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most." (Hebrews 4:16), "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7). No, the Bible doesn't promise that we will get everything we want, right here, right now, when we pray. After all, just as a parent doesn't grant all of their child's wishes (because children often do not know what is best for them), God is not going to grant all of our wishes as He knows full well that some of our requests would prove detrimental to us later down the road. Also, God's timing is not our own. Something we pray for now may not become resolved for months down the road. I have an incredibly difficult time with God's timing as I have rather low levels of patience (never would have thought that of me, right? ;) ) and I give up on things/situations rather easily. However, one thing God has surely taught me over these past few years is to NEVER give up praying for things that are important to you (as God answered a prayer very dear to my heart nearly a year after I started praying for it). Thus, I must remember to never give up on prayer as prayer often proves more powerful than we could ever realize. I often compare prayers to planting seeds in a garden. You plant seeds and care for them for many months until they bloom into new life (just as, oftentimes, you must consistently pray for something before God provides the answer you seek).
I could go on and on about this topic, but seeing as how you probably don't have all day to read my blog (though I'm sure you wish you did) I'll wrap things up with a wonderful quote I found by Oswald Chambers
“We have to pray with our eyes on God, not on the difficulties.” In other words, instead of worrying all the time about the troubles of life and dwelling on the negatives, we must lift our eyes to God and trust that, if we seek His will earnestly and never give up coming to Him, He will answer our prayers. No, He may not give us the answer we want, but He WILL get us through the situation and will provide for us in ways far more wonderful than we could have imagined for ourselves. Scripture reminds us that, "in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28). Thus, I have to remember to keep trusting that God will work out this struggle in my life for His glory and for my ultimate good. I've seen God work miracles in this situation previously, so the only smart thing left to do is to let go, do the best I can, trust, and pray and see what God does. After all, I have no clue what the heck I'm doing in life most of the time and God hasn't failed me yet in seeing me through. So, I don't think He's going to start failing me now......
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Music is a Gift from God (that's for sure)
If it weren't for music, I honestly think I would curl up into a little ball and flat out die. Okay yes I'm being dramatic (don't judge me. you know you love me for it) but I truly feel that music contributes greatly to my love of life. Music speaks to my soul and, in my humble opinion, is amazing evidence for the existence of God. Who else but an almighty God could have inspired something so transcendent of Earth and so expressive of the deepest of human emotions? Don't even try to sell me that evolution crap. If you try to tell me that music came from apes who had nothing better to do one day than sit around and compose masterpieces I may just slap you. haha just kidding (maybe) but seriously though, God has really used music to get me through a lot of crap and (being a singer) I am constantly listening to it/singing along (REALLY loudly. Sorry neighbors...). No, not all of my favorite songs could be considered masterpieces (okay, probably none of them could be....). but hey, I think they're beautiufl and I think enough of them to recommend them to you :) So, in honor of the end of the year, here are the 15 best songs I've discovered in 2012.
15. "I Won't Give Up"-Jason Mraz-Inspirational stuff
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=i+wont+give+up+jason+mraz+lyrics&oq=i+won&gs_l=youtube.1.1.0l10.511.3546.0.5654.23.11.5.0.0.4.154.992.8j3.11.0...0.0...1ac.1.rOPQDJqe7q0
14. "Lost in the Echo"-Linkin Park- Whenever I'm in a depressed mood, Linkin Park always proves helpful....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aq2ACEznrk8
13. "Something Happened on the Way to Heaven"- Phil Collins- Super catchy. Love his voice.
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=something+happened+on+the+way+to+heaven+phil+collins&oq=something+happened&gs_l=youtube-reduced.1.0.0l4.224383.226082.0.227631.18.11.0.6.6.0.137.930.7j4.11.0...0.0...1ac.1.cfBfOQhNPbo
12. "Hall Of Fame"- The Script-Another inspirational one
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=the+script+hall+of+fame+lyrics&oq=the+script+hall+of+fame+lyrics&gs_l=youtube-reduced.3..0l4.87089.90909.0.91012.36.17.3.16.17.0.156.1636.10j7.17.0...0.0...1ac.1.zk6oqPQdj_Q
11. "Paradise"-Coldplay-What can I say? It's Coldplay....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyoXP3w7dp4
10. "In Christ Alone"- Owl City-LOVE this song
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=in+christ+alone+owl+city&oq=in+christ+alone&gs_l=youtube.1.1.0l10.84738.86027.0.87405.15.6.0.9.9.0.121.607.3j3.6.0...0.0...1ac.1.WRGk2a7L0qQ
9. "Welcome to the Black Parade" -My Chemical Romance- Really moving.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-q9q6zl3WIs
8. "Titanium"- David Guetta ft Sia- Yes, it's been on the radio a thousand times. But I still love it.
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=titanium+lyrics&oq=titanium+lyrics&gs_l=youtube-reduced.3..0l4.56334.57781.0.57881.15.7.0.7.7.1.108.599.5j2.7.0...0.0...1ac.1.NLk8Cqgujjc
7. "The Last Time"- Taylor Swift ft Gary Lightbody- Best duet Taylor has ever done. Really beautiful.
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=taylor+swift+the+last+time+lyrics+&oq=taylor+swift+the+last+time+lyrics+&gs_l=youtube.3..0l7.5625.5625.0.6207.1.1.0.0.0.0.68.68.1.1.0...0.0...1ac.1.u8Yu6TURgOk
6. "21 Guns"- Green Day- I can't explain why I love this song. I just do :)
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=green+day+21+guns+lyrics&oq=green+day+21+&gs_l=youtube-reduced.1.1.0l4.9458.10978.0.12300.13.9.0.4.4.1.145.758.6j3.9.0...0.0...1ac.1.LcNm3I94Uac
5. "God Bless the Broken Road"- Rascal Flatts- So beautiful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZp6pmgbZyU&feature=g-vrec
4. "Payphone"- Maroon 5- Another overplayed song. But super catchy and enjoyable :)
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=payphone+maroon+5+lyrics+clean+no+rap&oq=payphone+maroon+5+lyrics+clean+&gs_l=youtube-reduced.1.0.0l4.50573.53743.0.55073.31.15.0.16.16.1.144.1298.11j4.15.0...0.0...1ac.1.ub6uitZ3dbw
3. "Vanilla Twilight"- Owl City- Adam Young is amazing in this song. I think it's his best for sure.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdc3RdXoFwA
2. "Run"- Snow Patrol- Absolutely gorgeous
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLMyBBZmL2M&feature=related
1. "A Thousand Years"- Christina Perri- Beautiful, moving, and my absolute favorite :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHkvan-NFnM
And there you have it :) Yes, I'm a music nerd. But who can blame me, right??
Later, world :)
15. "I Won't Give Up"-Jason Mraz-Inspirational stuff
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=i+wont+give+up+jason+mraz+lyrics&oq=i+won&gs_l=youtube.1.1.0l10.511.3546.0.5654.23.11.5.0.0.4.154.992.8j3.11.0...0.0...1ac.1.rOPQDJqe7q0
14. "Lost in the Echo"-Linkin Park- Whenever I'm in a depressed mood, Linkin Park always proves helpful....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aq2ACEznrk8
13. "Something Happened on the Way to Heaven"- Phil Collins- Super catchy. Love his voice.
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=something+happened+on+the+way+to+heaven+phil+collins&oq=something+happened&gs_l=youtube-reduced.1.0.0l4.224383.226082.0.227631.18.11.0.6.6.0.137.930.7j4.11.0...0.0...1ac.1.cfBfOQhNPbo
12. "Hall Of Fame"- The Script-Another inspirational one
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=the+script+hall+of+fame+lyrics&oq=the+script+hall+of+fame+lyrics&gs_l=youtube-reduced.3..0l4.87089.90909.0.91012.36.17.3.16.17.0.156.1636.10j7.17.0...0.0...1ac.1.zk6oqPQdj_Q
11. "Paradise"-Coldplay-What can I say? It's Coldplay....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyoXP3w7dp4
10. "In Christ Alone"- Owl City-LOVE this song
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=in+christ+alone+owl+city&oq=in+christ+alone&gs_l=youtube.1.1.0l10.84738.86027.0.87405.15.6.0.9.9.0.121.607.3j3.6.0...0.0...1ac.1.WRGk2a7L0qQ
9. "Welcome to the Black Parade" -My Chemical Romance- Really moving.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-q9q6zl3WIs
8. "Titanium"- David Guetta ft Sia- Yes, it's been on the radio a thousand times. But I still love it.
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=titanium+lyrics&oq=titanium+lyrics&gs_l=youtube-reduced.3..0l4.56334.57781.0.57881.15.7.0.7.7.1.108.599.5j2.7.0...0.0...1ac.1.NLk8Cqgujjc
7. "The Last Time"- Taylor Swift ft Gary Lightbody- Best duet Taylor has ever done. Really beautiful.
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=taylor+swift+the+last+time+lyrics+&oq=taylor+swift+the+last+time+lyrics+&gs_l=youtube.3..0l7.5625.5625.0.6207.1.1.0.0.0.0.68.68.1.1.0...0.0...1ac.1.u8Yu6TURgOk
6. "21 Guns"- Green Day- I can't explain why I love this song. I just do :)
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=green+day+21+guns+lyrics&oq=green+day+21+&gs_l=youtube-reduced.1.1.0l4.9458.10978.0.12300.13.9.0.4.4.1.145.758.6j3.9.0...0.0...1ac.1.LcNm3I94Uac
5. "God Bless the Broken Road"- Rascal Flatts- So beautiful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZp6pmgbZyU&feature=g-vrec
4. "Payphone"- Maroon 5- Another overplayed song. But super catchy and enjoyable :)
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=payphone+maroon+5+lyrics+clean+no+rap&oq=payphone+maroon+5+lyrics+clean+&gs_l=youtube-reduced.1.0.0l4.50573.53743.0.55073.31.15.0.16.16.1.144.1298.11j4.15.0...0.0...1ac.1.ub6uitZ3dbw
3. "Vanilla Twilight"- Owl City- Adam Young is amazing in this song. I think it's his best for sure.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdc3RdXoFwA
2. "Run"- Snow Patrol- Absolutely gorgeous
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLMyBBZmL2M&feature=related
1. "A Thousand Years"- Christina Perri- Beautiful, moving, and my absolute favorite :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHkvan-NFnM
And there you have it :) Yes, I'm a music nerd. But who can blame me, right??
Later, world :)
Saturday, December 29, 2012
It's Me
So I'm off work today and got to being all nostalgic and reading all my old blog posts. Then I realized, "you know what, I should probably stimulate my mind during Christmas break and actually attempt writing something that would be of interest to the general public." I can't guarantee how often I'll be on here once school starts back again, but I'll at least try to write something every so often so you won't start planning my funeral or something....
So yeah. 2012 has been super interesting to say the least. I feel like I've really changed as a person (for the better hopefully) and have really learned a lot of about life in general. I've survived 1 1/2 years of college (honors program and all plus a minimum of 18 hours every semester....yes you can say it...I'm certifiably insane), have gotten yet ANOTHER restaurant job (I'm a hostess again because my previous job treated me like a piece of crap....I'll tell you the whole story later....), developed relationships with some people who have absolutely changed my life, and have learned (yet again) that God is with me, no matter what, and provides for me in the most incredible ways when I least deserve/expect it. This year has been up and down and has thrown me for a loop at times (in both good and bad ways), but it's honestly been pretty amazing for the most part and has helped me grow as an individual (wow I sound really philosophical today).
Well I have so much to catch you up on that I really have NO idea where to start. So I suppose I'll start by filling you in on my little job drama. Basically, I started serving at at a restaurant last December and, for the most part, felt I did a pretty decent job seeing as how my boss seemed to like me (and gave me tons of hours) and I always had a smile at my face and did anything and everything to please my customers (okay so what if I just wanted their money? I was still nice....and that's what counts right?) Anyhow, seeing as how my life tends to attract problematic occurrences, I was not surprised when things started to go horribly wrong. It all began when the place got a new manager. Being the nice (humble aren't I?) person that I am, when he first got there I went in and introduced myself and (very nicely) gave him my availability for the summer and he seemed okay with it. Simple right? Think again. For the first TWO weeks he was there, I went from having 30+ hours to (I kid you not) ZERO. I was in shock. After all, he didn't know me from Eve and had no idea whether I was bad or good at my job or not. Seriously, the guy didn't have a clue. So he had no reason whatsoever for giving me no hours. If he was prejudiced against me for being a spoiled college-student, then the guy had another thing coming seeing as how I work hard for my money like everyone else (I live off-campus and have bills like other "normal" people) and am certainly far from being rich (seeing as how I'm spending all my money to go to college in the first place). Anyhow, I asked him for more hours and he came back with, "I'm still getting things worked out with the schedule and then I'll get things worked out." And then this ever-generous man upped my hours to *gasp* FIVE. (I know. He totally deserved the Nobel Peace Prize for that one). Well, after two more weeks went by, I confronted him again (I'm normally not an argumentative person so this was a pretty big deal for me to even say anything at all). This time, he said that he just didn't have enough hours at the moment but that things would get better soon (promises, promises). Feasible excuse, right? Would have been super feasible if two days later he hadn't hired another server AND if he wasn't advertizing on the sign outside that the dang place was hiring (the nerve of this man).
Well, to put it incredibly nicely, I was irritated. I work hard at my job and felt like I was getting seriously gypped. If I didn't have another job, (I still work at the psych office), I would have been on the floor broke. Soo finally, I confronted him yet AGAIN seeing as how his excuses were starting to wear thin. I'm a very reasonable, forgiving person, but I can't stand being fed the same old crap excuses time and time again that make absolutely no sense. This time, he gave it to me straight. He basically told me, in no uncertain terms, that he was of the intellectual opinion that I sucked at my job and wasn't as good as the other servers. In other words, he might as well have taken his foot and kicked me squarely in the face. Being the sensitive, overachieving individual that I am, I left in tears and was quite dejected for the rest of the day. By the end of the day, however, I was more mad than sad. After all, he himself only worked personally with me for one day of the week and there were a lot of days when he didn't work with me at all. The days he DID work with me, I was lots of the times the only server on the floor and had about 11-12 tables at one time. I'd like to see him running around trying to wait on 11-12 tables of demanding customers without having a tiny bit of a hard time. I mean seriously?? I'm not Superwoman here. Anyhow, I feel as though, for some reason, he didn't like me from the very start seeing as how he didn't give me hours from the very beginning (before he even know what I was capable of).
Yes, I was incredibly wrong by this establishment, but the story does have a happy ending. I am now a hostess at a different restaurant where I am actually appreciated by my managers and get the perfect amount of hours. Plus I don't have to rely on tips anymore (gotta love hourly). Soo, despite my awful experience, I am quite thankful that I'm outta there now and at a much better job. Yeah, this job gets incredibly annoying and frustrating and crazy at times, but no one's job is perfect, right? So in the end, I harbor no hard feelings. I chalk it up as one of those experiences that works out for the best. However, don't expect to ever find me eating at that awful, unspeakable restaurant again cause it won't be happening :)
Later (and this time I promise I'll come back. I always do...eventually....) :)
So yeah. 2012 has been super interesting to say the least. I feel like I've really changed as a person (for the better hopefully) and have really learned a lot of about life in general. I've survived 1 1/2 years of college (honors program and all plus a minimum of 18 hours every semester....yes you can say it...I'm certifiably insane), have gotten yet ANOTHER restaurant job (I'm a hostess again because my previous job treated me like a piece of crap....I'll tell you the whole story later....), developed relationships with some people who have absolutely changed my life, and have learned (yet again) that God is with me, no matter what, and provides for me in the most incredible ways when I least deserve/expect it. This year has been up and down and has thrown me for a loop at times (in both good and bad ways), but it's honestly been pretty amazing for the most part and has helped me grow as an individual (wow I sound really philosophical today).
Well I have so much to catch you up on that I really have NO idea where to start. So I suppose I'll start by filling you in on my little job drama. Basically, I started serving at at a restaurant last December and, for the most part, felt I did a pretty decent job seeing as how my boss seemed to like me (and gave me tons of hours) and I always had a smile at my face and did anything and everything to please my customers (okay so what if I just wanted their money? I was still nice....and that's what counts right?) Anyhow, seeing as how my life tends to attract problematic occurrences, I was not surprised when things started to go horribly wrong. It all began when the place got a new manager. Being the nice (humble aren't I?) person that I am, when he first got there I went in and introduced myself and (very nicely) gave him my availability for the summer and he seemed okay with it. Simple right? Think again. For the first TWO weeks he was there, I went from having 30+ hours to (I kid you not) ZERO. I was in shock. After all, he didn't know me from Eve and had no idea whether I was bad or good at my job or not. Seriously, the guy didn't have a clue. So he had no reason whatsoever for giving me no hours. If he was prejudiced against me for being a spoiled college-student, then the guy had another thing coming seeing as how I work hard for my money like everyone else (I live off-campus and have bills like other "normal" people) and am certainly far from being rich (seeing as how I'm spending all my money to go to college in the first place). Anyhow, I asked him for more hours and he came back with, "I'm still getting things worked out with the schedule and then I'll get things worked out." And then this ever-generous man upped my hours to *gasp* FIVE. (I know. He totally deserved the Nobel Peace Prize for that one). Well, after two more weeks went by, I confronted him again (I'm normally not an argumentative person so this was a pretty big deal for me to even say anything at all). This time, he said that he just didn't have enough hours at the moment but that things would get better soon (promises, promises). Feasible excuse, right? Would have been super feasible if two days later he hadn't hired another server AND if he wasn't advertizing on the sign outside that the dang place was hiring (the nerve of this man).
Well, to put it incredibly nicely, I was irritated. I work hard at my job and felt like I was getting seriously gypped. If I didn't have another job, (I still work at the psych office), I would have been on the floor broke. Soo finally, I confronted him yet AGAIN seeing as how his excuses were starting to wear thin. I'm a very reasonable, forgiving person, but I can't stand being fed the same old crap excuses time and time again that make absolutely no sense. This time, he gave it to me straight. He basically told me, in no uncertain terms, that he was of the intellectual opinion that I sucked at my job and wasn't as good as the other servers. In other words, he might as well have taken his foot and kicked me squarely in the face. Being the sensitive, overachieving individual that I am, I left in tears and was quite dejected for the rest of the day. By the end of the day, however, I was more mad than sad. After all, he himself only worked personally with me for one day of the week and there were a lot of days when he didn't work with me at all. The days he DID work with me, I was lots of the times the only server on the floor and had about 11-12 tables at one time. I'd like to see him running around trying to wait on 11-12 tables of demanding customers without having a tiny bit of a hard time. I mean seriously?? I'm not Superwoman here. Anyhow, I feel as though, for some reason, he didn't like me from the very start seeing as how he didn't give me hours from the very beginning (before he even know what I was capable of).
Yes, I was incredibly wrong by this establishment, but the story does have a happy ending. I am now a hostess at a different restaurant where I am actually appreciated by my managers and get the perfect amount of hours. Plus I don't have to rely on tips anymore (gotta love hourly). Soo, despite my awful experience, I am quite thankful that I'm outta there now and at a much better job. Yeah, this job gets incredibly annoying and frustrating and crazy at times, but no one's job is perfect, right? So in the end, I harbor no hard feelings. I chalk it up as one of those experiences that works out for the best. However, don't expect to ever find me eating at that awful, unspeakable restaurant again cause it won't be happening :)
Later (and this time I promise I'll come back. I always do...eventually....) :)
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Hannah's Political Rant
iSeeing as how different political primaries are going on across the country at this time, I thought I'd take a brief interlude from updating you on my oh so fascinating life to say a brief word about politics. Thrilling, I know (you say as your mouse frantically searches for anything that will take you light years away from this website). I used to hate politics myself (and I certainly don't call myself obsessed or enthralled with it as some individuals I know), but I've gotten a little more interested as of late thanks to all the insane things going on.
Firstly, let me implore you to please go to the polls and vote for Ron Paul. Why, you might ask? Well, in my humble opinion he has the best ideas to get our country back on track (such as cutting the insane amounts of government spending, getting our troops out of Iraq/Afghanistan, and loosening the chokehold that our government is slowly imposing on our supposedly free nation). He also appears to have the best shot of all the Republican nominees at beating Obama as he appeals to, not only Republicans, but Independents and Democrats as well.
And why, you may ask, is it important that Obama not be reelected? Oh heavens, where do I even begin? Should I start by noting how Obama is all talk and no action (after all, he promised to get all the troops out by this point in time as well as restore our economy, which he has actually wrecked thanks to all his increased spending), or by commenting on how Obama seems to care nothing for the individual freedoms of Americans? After all, this is the same man who has instituted national healthcare (oh yeah, that doesn't reek of Socialism one bit), as well as, more recently, martial law and has pushed for internet piracy laws that, believe it or not, will end up destroying internet businesses as well as prohibiting free speech on the internet. So technically Obama could prosecute me for saying this stuff about him if these laws got passed. Basically, then, our dear old president has succeeded only at pushing our economy farther down the tubes, taking away freedoms of Americans slowly but surely, and ensuring that our troops will be overseas fighting useless battles for quite some time yet. And people actually want to reelect this guy? If that does happen, I think I'm moving to Australia....
Oh, and one more thing. Don't you find it suspicious that though there's been all this talk of the Republican primaries, there's been nothing about the Democratic primaries? In fact, they're not even having one this year because, supposedly, Obama is a sure win. Oh please. So you're telling me that there's not even one other Democrat who wants to run against Obama? Or any Democrats who will vote for other candidates versus Obama? It seems awfully suspcious to me. As though the Obama administration ensured that no Democratic primary would occur in the first place so as to ensure Obama's lock-in as the Democrat nominee. So, if this administration found the power to do that, who knows what else they have the power to do under the radar (seeing as how there's virtually no media coverage of this lack of Democratic primary). Creepy, right?
So, bottom line is, when your state's primary gets here, VOTE FOR RON PAUL! And then vote for WHOEVER is running against Obama. If you choose to listen to me that is....Okay, I'm done now. I promise. Normal life can resume once more ;)
Monday, January 9, 2012
Oh My
It has been entirely too long. You probably thought I'd fallen off the face of the earth, right? Well, I hope you at least missed me a little. *hint hint*...;) Anyways, I am back, hopefully for good this time. Though you never know how crazy my life will get once my second semester of school starts. Two jobs + the cruel torture of that thing known as the *dun dun dun* honors *gulp* program + plus the massive amounts of homework poor college students receive because their teachers think they have no life outside of it might leave me no free writing time whatsoever. But hey, who says a girl can't make time?
Anyways, what has my year looked like you might ask? Well...where do I begin? I decided on a college, had one of the best summers of my life, started college, had my heart broken and crushed into little tiny pieces, quit my hosting job, got a serving job (recently on top of my job at the psych office that I wouldn't give up for the world), survived the semester (oh the stories I have from this experience known as college...), met some out-of-this world people, and realized that without God I would be a ball of emotional wreckage. So yeah, it's been some year. I might have to catch you up gradually. We'll see....For now, though, I'll end with a quote I found today that I see as particularly inspiring (especially for someone like me who tends to dwell on the past and all the times I've made a mess of things).
“Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
Until next time ;)
Anyways, what has my year looked like you might ask? Well...where do I begin? I decided on a college, had one of the best summers of my life, started college, had my heart broken and crushed into little tiny pieces, quit my hosting job, got a serving job (recently on top of my job at the psych office that I wouldn't give up for the world), survived the semester (oh the stories I have from this experience known as college...), met some out-of-this world people, and realized that without God I would be a ball of emotional wreckage. So yeah, it's been some year. I might have to catch you up gradually. We'll see....For now, though, I'll end with a quote I found today that I see as particularly inspiring (especially for someone like me who tends to dwell on the past and all the times I've made a mess of things).
“Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
Until next time ;)
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Guess Who It Is...?
Yep it's me.
I'm still alive.
I have been gone for so long and I have no excuse at all. Well technically I do I suppose....I have two jobs, am getting ready for college this fall, am still taking voice and trying to do a bunch of other things at once (you know what a workaholic this girl is). So yes, a LOT has happened to me since I last posted. A lot of good, a lot of neutral, a lot of really rotten things (like breaking a limb for the first time), etc. etc. But hey, that's life I suppose.
So that means I will have to catch you up little by little. To start with, let me tell you just a little about that wonderful world called work that I have entered. After all my complaining, whining and carrying on, I FINALLY found a job. *insert Hallejuah Chorus here*. I'm a restaurant hostess (and have been for almost 7 months now) AND I'm a secretary for a local psychologist which is the better job by far! I'm a huge psychology nerd, so so what if all I get to do is paperwork. Being in any kind of psychology environment will do for now. :)
So yeah, the restaurant job is....well...to be honest I'm growing to hate parts of it. Yes, I've made a lot of friends and had some interesting experiences. But good grief there are some days where I just want to cry, punch people who decide to walk in the door at 9:30 PM when I'm about to go home and tell people that they are going to sit where I darn well tell them they are going to sit or else they can just feed themselves. Oh and did I mention that I have to clean bathrooms? Yes, Germophobic Hannah's worst nightmares have come to fruition. (Let's just say I did not realize this before I took the job). Who would have thought I could handle something so utterly disgusting? I really do amaze myself....;) Anyways, I am making it though and am thankful to have money (that's what matters right?). No, this gap year hasn't been all fun and games. But hey, I've learned a lot, met a lot of awesome people and have had some good experiences on top of the bad (though having to be taken to the ER by my boss was no picnic...but that story is for another day...). God has shown me a lot during this year and I'm thankful for it (though at this point, college can't come soon enough...) Speaking of college, this year I did a complete 180 in my college decision, flipped the other direction, and then found myself deciding on the school that I had originally planned on attending two years ago (who would have thought...). I'll have to tell you that story as well. Until then....au revoir my friends (yes....French....I had to have something to study during my year off ;) ).
I'm still alive.
I have been gone for so long and I have no excuse at all. Well technically I do I suppose....I have two jobs, am getting ready for college this fall, am still taking voice and trying to do a bunch of other things at once (you know what a workaholic this girl is). So yes, a LOT has happened to me since I last posted. A lot of good, a lot of neutral, a lot of really rotten things (like breaking a limb for the first time), etc. etc. But hey, that's life I suppose.
So that means I will have to catch you up little by little. To start with, let me tell you just a little about that wonderful world called work that I have entered. After all my complaining, whining and carrying on, I FINALLY found a job. *insert Hallejuah Chorus here*. I'm a restaurant hostess (and have been for almost 7 months now) AND I'm a secretary for a local psychologist which is the better job by far! I'm a huge psychology nerd, so so what if all I get to do is paperwork. Being in any kind of psychology environment will do for now. :)
So yeah, the restaurant job is....well...to be honest I'm growing to hate parts of it. Yes, I've made a lot of friends and had some interesting experiences. But good grief there are some days where I just want to cry, punch people who decide to walk in the door at 9:30 PM when I'm about to go home and tell people that they are going to sit where I darn well tell them they are going to sit or else they can just feed themselves. Oh and did I mention that I have to clean bathrooms? Yes, Germophobic Hannah's worst nightmares have come to fruition. (Let's just say I did not realize this before I took the job). Who would have thought I could handle something so utterly disgusting? I really do amaze myself....;) Anyways, I am making it though and am thankful to have money (that's what matters right?). No, this gap year hasn't been all fun and games. But hey, I've learned a lot, met a lot of awesome people and have had some good experiences on top of the bad (though having to be taken to the ER by my boss was no picnic...but that story is for another day...). God has shown me a lot during this year and I'm thankful for it (though at this point, college can't come soon enough...) Speaking of college, this year I did a complete 180 in my college decision, flipped the other direction, and then found myself deciding on the school that I had originally planned on attending two years ago (who would have thought...). I'll have to tell you that story as well. Until then....au revoir my friends (yes....French....I had to have something to study during my year off ;) ).
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
You Know What Really Bugs Me....?
....*Texting. I mean come on people. Do you really and truly have to be stuck in your cell phone all day? No offense but I can almost guarantee the world will NOT end if you can't touch your cell phone for two seconds. (I know. I'm crazy aren't I.) Okay okay I know. I used to be a *gulp* texter. And in some situations I will condone it. (Like if you're talking to someone I highly approve of and you let me read what you're saying to them) ;). BUT some people have just taken it way too far. It seems pretty ironic to me that you're missing out talking to people in real life because you're too busy virtually talking to people. Why do I have a feeling this whole generation will suffer from eye strain and unable-to-use-one's-hands syndrome.....*sigh*. Okay rant over. And no, I won't hate you forever and attempt to murder you in your sleep if you text. Just don't do it when you're talking to me (though I will make exceptions depending on how awesome you are...).
...*Having to use the library computer so much because I can only use my home computer between the hours of 3-6 PM. Yeah just don't even ask....
....*Evasive people who never give you a straight answer about anything. Just know I will not hesitate to throttle an answer out of you if you persist on messing with my mind....;)
....*Not being able to find a job because people take one look at you, think "Oh....It's one of those....*gasp*....teenagers" and then patronize you by saying, "I'm so very sorry, hun, but we're not hiring right now...." (Yep. I'm sure you're just being eaten alive by all your pity for me...).
Sorry for all my cynicalness. I'm not really in that bad a mood and I'm not as angsty as this blog applies. I'm just getting some things off my chest.....You know how I am. ;)
Later
...*Having to use the library computer so much because I can only use my home computer between the hours of 3-6 PM. Yeah just don't even ask....
....*Evasive people who never give you a straight answer about anything. Just know I will not hesitate to throttle an answer out of you if you persist on messing with my mind....;)
....*Not being able to find a job because people take one look at you, think "Oh....It's one of those....*gasp*....teenagers" and then patronize you by saying, "I'm so very sorry, hun, but we're not hiring right now...." (Yep. I'm sure you're just being eaten alive by all your pity for me...).
Sorry for all my cynicalness. I'm not really in that bad a mood and I'm not as angsty as this blog applies. I'm just getting some things off my chest.....You know how I am. ;)
Later
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Allergy Horrors- Part 2
If you haven't read my last post, go read it before reading this....(though you probably should have figured that out seeing as how this is part 2). ;)
....When I first saw the results of my allergy test, I wanted to explode. My first reason for wanting to explode was from my prideful joy in being right. I had NOT been a hypochondriac and had not imagined my strange reactions to dairy. I was off the chart allergic to all dairy products (take that you crazy people who didn't believe me!). My second reason for wanting to explode was out of pure horror and shock. The dairy thing didn't unnerve me that much because I'd been avoiding it for a while. However, not only was I off the charts allergic to dairy, but I was also off the charts allergic to *clears throat* wheat, gluten and eggs....(and of course cashews but we already knew that seeing as how I had to be rushed to the ER after consuming one).
That might not sound so bad at first, but just think about it for a second. That meant no regular bread, no pasta, hardly any packaged foods (though it's healthier to avoid those anyways,), etc. etc. I was in a state of shock. For those of you who didn't know this, I have been addicted to bread and pasta for YEARS. And with one simple allergy test it was all over. I wanted to cry....
So I know you're surprised that I haven't starved to death after all these weeks. But, believe it or not, I'm actually surviving pretty well. Though it's weird going out to eat (I have to eat hamburgers without the bun which looks pretty strange) I've found a lot of substitutes. Some absolutely wonderful souls out there decided that just because one is gluten and lactose intolerant doesn't mean one should live in torture and thus made a whole bunch of actually good tasting food without all that stuff in it. Sure this stuff is no replacement for that heavenly tasting thing known as white bread, but hey, at least I'm forced to eat healthier (I've had to eat more fruits and vegetables over the past two months than I would have normally volunteered to eat). Also, you don't really have to worry about getting fat without bread and pasta and milk in your diet. Yes, there is a positive side to everything....(well, most everything anyways)....;)
....When I first saw the results of my allergy test, I wanted to explode. My first reason for wanting to explode was from my prideful joy in being right. I had NOT been a hypochondriac and had not imagined my strange reactions to dairy. I was off the chart allergic to all dairy products (take that you crazy people who didn't believe me!). My second reason for wanting to explode was out of pure horror and shock. The dairy thing didn't unnerve me that much because I'd been avoiding it for a while. However, not only was I off the charts allergic to dairy, but I was also off the charts allergic to *clears throat* wheat, gluten and eggs....(and of course cashews but we already knew that seeing as how I had to be rushed to the ER after consuming one).
That might not sound so bad at first, but just think about it for a second. That meant no regular bread, no pasta, hardly any packaged foods (though it's healthier to avoid those anyways,), etc. etc. I was in a state of shock. For those of you who didn't know this, I have been addicted to bread and pasta for YEARS. And with one simple allergy test it was all over. I wanted to cry....
So I know you're surprised that I haven't starved to death after all these weeks. But, believe it or not, I'm actually surviving pretty well. Though it's weird going out to eat (I have to eat hamburgers without the bun which looks pretty strange) I've found a lot of substitutes. Some absolutely wonderful souls out there decided that just because one is gluten and lactose intolerant doesn't mean one should live in torture and thus made a whole bunch of actually good tasting food without all that stuff in it. Sure this stuff is no replacement for that heavenly tasting thing known as white bread, but hey, at least I'm forced to eat healthier (I've had to eat more fruits and vegetables over the past two months than I would have normally volunteered to eat). Also, you don't really have to worry about getting fat without bread and pasta and milk in your diet. Yes, there is a positive side to everything....(well, most everything anyways)....;)
Monday, June 28, 2010
Allergy Horrors- Part 1
Last month I had to go visit the doctor (fun times) so I could FINALLY figure out what foods I was allergic to. Luckily I go to an integrative doctor rather than a conventional one (which means I don't have to have dangerous shots forced on me all the time and I get the opportunity to take helpful supplements and such) so the checkup itself wasn't that bad. Rather, it was the blood giving part that really shook me up.
I had known for a while that I would have to give blood for the allergy tests, but nothing prepared me for the horror. I made it through the actual blood giving okay by staring at the wall as though I were obsessed with it and pretending that I didn't exist. Then as I sat there recuperating, I figured the worst was over and that I had made it. Then the nurse, bless her heart, suddenly decided to tell my mom a whole host of stories about people fainting after giving blood. Needless to say, the thought that I might faint hadn't really crossed my mind before, but it sure as heck crossed my mind now. As the nurse gabbed on and on my stomach started to hurt really really bad and my ears started ringing. I tried to shake it off and act like nothing was wrong, but (suggestive and hypochondriacal person that I am) I couldn't and instead started to panic (which didn't really help matters much). Somewhere in the middle of a story involving a girl fainting dead away and bouncing off the wall, my stomach hurt so bad I was SURE I was going to puke and the world was slowly starting to fade away. I'd never fainted before, but I figured that if you got to the point where you started seeing black spots and your ears were ringing so badly you could barely hear that you were pretty darn close. I finally voiced my concerns, and the nurse, (as though she had been expecting this all along) made me lie down. I lay there for a long time, white as a sheet and trying my best not to think about blood-related things. It was difficult let me tell you....
Finally, I was able to sit up without the world spinning wildly and I found that my terrible nausea had passed (I wonder what it is about fainting that it has to include the urge to puke...). I weakly left the doctor's office, deciding that I would NEVER give blood again unless under emergency circumstances and that anyone who tried to force me to do so under unnecessary circumstances would be severely throttled.....
Well, I waited about 3 long weeks after that for the results of my allergy test. After such a long period of anticipation I was about to discover whether my strange reactions to dairy were truly that or just me being a hypochondriac (my brothers tended to declare for the latter option)....I must say though, that the test surprised me quite a good deal.
To be continued.....;)
I had known for a while that I would have to give blood for the allergy tests, but nothing prepared me for the horror. I made it through the actual blood giving okay by staring at the wall as though I were obsessed with it and pretending that I didn't exist. Then as I sat there recuperating, I figured the worst was over and that I had made it. Then the nurse, bless her heart, suddenly decided to tell my mom a whole host of stories about people fainting after giving blood. Needless to say, the thought that I might faint hadn't really crossed my mind before, but it sure as heck crossed my mind now. As the nurse gabbed on and on my stomach started to hurt really really bad and my ears started ringing. I tried to shake it off and act like nothing was wrong, but (suggestive and hypochondriacal person that I am) I couldn't and instead started to panic (which didn't really help matters much). Somewhere in the middle of a story involving a girl fainting dead away and bouncing off the wall, my stomach hurt so bad I was SURE I was going to puke and the world was slowly starting to fade away. I'd never fainted before, but I figured that if you got to the point where you started seeing black spots and your ears were ringing so badly you could barely hear that you were pretty darn close. I finally voiced my concerns, and the nurse, (as though she had been expecting this all along) made me lie down. I lay there for a long time, white as a sheet and trying my best not to think about blood-related things. It was difficult let me tell you....
Finally, I was able to sit up without the world spinning wildly and I found that my terrible nausea had passed (I wonder what it is about fainting that it has to include the urge to puke...). I weakly left the doctor's office, deciding that I would NEVER give blood again unless under emergency circumstances and that anyone who tried to force me to do so under unnecessary circumstances would be severely throttled.....
Well, I waited about 3 long weeks after that for the results of my allergy test. After such a long period of anticipation I was about to discover whether my strange reactions to dairy were truly that or just me being a hypochondriac (my brothers tended to declare for the latter option)....I must say though, that the test surprised me quite a good deal.
To be continued.....;)
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Books These Days....
What goes through the heads of the majority of authors of teen books these days? Do they really have such a low opinion of this generation?
Honestly, too many teen books are filled with absolute crap (if you want to be blunt about it). Cursing is rampant (are we honestly that short on vocabulary that we can't think of better words to express our thoughts?), all the characters seem ignorant of even the most basic morals and I won't even begin to talk about the sex element.... Sex is a beautiful gift from God (when saved for marriage), whereas these books turn it into a cheap, meaningless nothing. Sickening.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to say that I want to read books about goody-two-shoes and teenagers who do no wrong. It just would be nice to read something that doesn't make me cringe, turn red, or attempt to hide the book deep in my abysmal closet so my mom doesn't see it...It would also be nice to read about teenagers who are not completely without a sense of moral direction and who don't abuse sex in such disgusting ways. I mean honestly people. Are today's teenagers really that....bad?
Thankfully not that all modern-day books are like that. The Harry Potter books are some of my most favorite books in this whole wide world and the Twilight books (surprisingly enough) don't have any overboard sexual discussions/depictions. However, such books seem to be few and far between. It sure does make my day to know the high expectations authors have of us teenagers. Thanks guys.....
Honestly, too many teen books are filled with absolute crap (if you want to be blunt about it). Cursing is rampant (are we honestly that short on vocabulary that we can't think of better words to express our thoughts?), all the characters seem ignorant of even the most basic morals and I won't even begin to talk about the sex element.... Sex is a beautiful gift from God (when saved for marriage), whereas these books turn it into a cheap, meaningless nothing. Sickening.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to say that I want to read books about goody-two-shoes and teenagers who do no wrong. It just would be nice to read something that doesn't make me cringe, turn red, or attempt to hide the book deep in my abysmal closet so my mom doesn't see it...It would also be nice to read about teenagers who are not completely without a sense of moral direction and who don't abuse sex in such disgusting ways. I mean honestly people. Are today's teenagers really that....bad?
Thankfully not that all modern-day books are like that. The Harry Potter books are some of my most favorite books in this whole wide world and the Twilight books (surprisingly enough) don't have any overboard sexual discussions/depictions. However, such books seem to be few and far between. It sure does make my day to know the high expectations authors have of us teenagers. Thanks guys.....
Monday, June 21, 2010
It is I
Yes, I am the ULTIMATE blog slacker and there is no competition for that title....BUT summer is finally here which means I am a free woman. Thus, I will have much more time to post...
As to summer, it has been pretty darn amazing so far. I have gotten to hang out with some of the most amazing people in the world, have gotten to read my romance novels and psychology books to my heart's content (and the reading is still going on) and have rediscovered the art of relaxing. ;) I also have had a heart bursting with pride because my little brother got the part of Kurt in the play "The Sound of Music" that our town is putting on (if you don't know who Kurt is or what "The Sound of Music" is than you are seriously deprived....haha). I am rather obsessed with that movie (I've been watching it since I was 6 after all) and getting to help him with all the music is probably more fun for me than it is for him....The sad part is though that I will just so happen to be out of town the week of the performance (yes, the VERY week of the performance a vacation just had to be scheduled for me. That's my luck for you...). The vacation will be awesome hopefully (seeing as how it's to Boston and I've never been anywhere quite that exotic so far) but missing the play might just finish me off....I will just have to settle for dress rehearsals I suppose *sigh*
So anyways that's what's been going on with me. In future days I will give you some more details of some things coming up and some experiences I've had lately, but for right now I'm gonna go cause my eyes are getting weary of staring at this screen and I really don't want to go blind for the sake of blogging (though it IS a rather good sake I must say....;) ). Later
As to summer, it has been pretty darn amazing so far. I have gotten to hang out with some of the most amazing people in the world, have gotten to read my romance novels and psychology books to my heart's content (and the reading is still going on) and have rediscovered the art of relaxing. ;) I also have had a heart bursting with pride because my little brother got the part of Kurt in the play "The Sound of Music" that our town is putting on (if you don't know who Kurt is or what "The Sound of Music" is than you are seriously deprived....haha). I am rather obsessed with that movie (I've been watching it since I was 6 after all) and getting to help him with all the music is probably more fun for me than it is for him....The sad part is though that I will just so happen to be out of town the week of the performance (yes, the VERY week of the performance a vacation just had to be scheduled for me. That's my luck for you...). The vacation will be awesome hopefully (seeing as how it's to Boston and I've never been anywhere quite that exotic so far) but missing the play might just finish me off....I will just have to settle for dress rehearsals I suppose *sigh*
So anyways that's what's been going on with me. In future days I will give you some more details of some things coming up and some experiences I've had lately, but for right now I'm gonna go cause my eyes are getting weary of staring at this screen and I really don't want to go blind for the sake of blogging (though it IS a rather good sake I must say....;) ). Later
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Stupid computer
I know I know. I've been a slacker. But it's not my fault this time. *shoots an evil, menacing stare in the direction of my computer 5 miles away*. You see, one day my computer just decided to make my stressful life just that more stressful by not working. I tried everything. I repaired the connection until my brain was spinning and I was about to punch something. And of course, no luck. I think the harder you try with computers, the more they act up. So anyways, I've been forced to check the internet on our library's computer which is not the best thing in the world seeing as how I'm rather paranoid at anyone seeing what I'm typing. That is why I am now sitting hunched as close as I can to the computer, my eyes occasionally scanning the room to make sure there are no creepers around with the nerve to attempt to infiltrate my personal life......Just kidding. I'm not quite THAT paranoid. but I am extremely annoyed. So that's the reason I haven't been blogging much. I just don't have time because they limit your use of the computer here to a certain number of minutes a day ("seriously?" I ask myself...).
Over and out (and if you suddenly heard a loud bang it's probably me exploding in fury at the world of technology.).
Over and out (and if you suddenly heard a loud bang it's probably me exploding in fury at the world of technology.).
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Randomness of My Life....
Sorry it's been such a while. I've just been plain lazy and I'm rather ashamed of myself....but I promise that I will try to do better. ;) A lot of stuff's been going on this month so here are a few things....
*This weekend I spent the night at my dear friend Courtney's house, and when I woke up the next day I realized I was snowed in as it was blizzarding at a rather rapid rate. I have to admit that I was pretty happy about the fact that I got to stay a whole 'nother day, but I'm sure everyone in the house all went into shock and considered running out of the house as fast as they could upon discovering this...Haha just kidding ;) Anyways, I had a pretty darn awesome time, though one night was rather creepy.....It was about 12 at night and we were minding our own business trying to sleep, when all of a sudden the outside lights came on. Courtney said that the lights got triggered by movement, and I have to admit that this did not reassure me too much. For all I knew there could be some creeper out there ready to jump in the window and slash our throats. Anyways I was rather creeped out by this point, when suddenly I heard a loud cry that sounded like a child (or me when I am denied chocolate). By this time we were both seriously freaked out, so we slowly got up and went into the hallway. A rather strange sight met my eyes. There was a strange, yellow, freakishly large cat with his face pressed up against the glass staring in at Courtney's cat who was staring at it from the other side of the glass. Normally such a sight wouldn't have phased me (except making me laugh hysterically and which in turn might make me fall over cracking my skull) but seeing as how it was black night and I had axe murderers on my mind I was rather creeped out to say the least. After staring in shock at this sight for a few minutes, we went back to bed. I think we would have slept fine after that except for the fact that I complicated the situation by launching into a discussion about cats the size of humans. This in turn launched a whole series of shrieks and other unnerving incidents until suddenly it was 2 AM. Bringing up the giant cat thing was not my brightest moment, I'll admit it...But hey, at least I'm not a creeper like that wierdo cat....
*School has been stressful (to say the least). Also, I'm suddenly having to face the idea of looking at other colleges since the one I want to go to is really expensive. I can probably still go there if I get lots of scholarships (no pressure right?) but I'm looking at some others just in case....And yes one of them is a big public unversity (one of the best in the country though). I have to admit that looking at this one will be a rather big (and probably rather terrifying) adventure for me seeing as how I've always imagined myself at a small, private college. The first time my mom mentioned it I almost went into shock. This idea had never crossed my mind before. At first I was like, "No way! Are you kidding me????" Then I started to consider it. It is, after all, ranked #1 in psychology (which I'm very much interested in), has tons of activities and clubs and such, and is the home of the best basketball team in the world after all....Hmm.....So the bottom line is, after recovering from a state of shock, I decided to go visit it after all. Even if I don't go there, it'll be an experience at least (though a rather scary one I'll admit...). I'm going next month, so I'll let you know how it goes (if I survive to tell the tale).....haha just kidding ;)
*A few weeks ago I went to Gatlinburg with my youth group, and it was pretty awesome (but rather crazy) to say the least....But I'll give you the story on that one later ;)
*This weekend I spent the night at my dear friend Courtney's house, and when I woke up the next day I realized I was snowed in as it was blizzarding at a rather rapid rate. I have to admit that I was pretty happy about the fact that I got to stay a whole 'nother day, but I'm sure everyone in the house all went into shock and considered running out of the house as fast as they could upon discovering this...Haha just kidding ;) Anyways, I had a pretty darn awesome time, though one night was rather creepy.....It was about 12 at night and we were minding our own business trying to sleep, when all of a sudden the outside lights came on. Courtney said that the lights got triggered by movement, and I have to admit that this did not reassure me too much. For all I knew there could be some creeper out there ready to jump in the window and slash our throats. Anyways I was rather creeped out by this point, when suddenly I heard a loud cry that sounded like a child (or me when I am denied chocolate). By this time we were both seriously freaked out, so we slowly got up and went into the hallway. A rather strange sight met my eyes. There was a strange, yellow, freakishly large cat with his face pressed up against the glass staring in at Courtney's cat who was staring at it from the other side of the glass. Normally such a sight wouldn't have phased me (except making me laugh hysterically and which in turn might make me fall over cracking my skull) but seeing as how it was black night and I had axe murderers on my mind I was rather creeped out to say the least. After staring in shock at this sight for a few minutes, we went back to bed. I think we would have slept fine after that except for the fact that I complicated the situation by launching into a discussion about cats the size of humans. This in turn launched a whole series of shrieks and other unnerving incidents until suddenly it was 2 AM. Bringing up the giant cat thing was not my brightest moment, I'll admit it...But hey, at least I'm not a creeper like that wierdo cat....
*School has been stressful (to say the least). Also, I'm suddenly having to face the idea of looking at other colleges since the one I want to go to is really expensive. I can probably still go there if I get lots of scholarships (no pressure right?) but I'm looking at some others just in case....And yes one of them is a big public unversity (one of the best in the country though). I have to admit that looking at this one will be a rather big (and probably rather terrifying) adventure for me seeing as how I've always imagined myself at a small, private college. The first time my mom mentioned it I almost went into shock. This idea had never crossed my mind before. At first I was like, "No way! Are you kidding me????" Then I started to consider it. It is, after all, ranked #1 in psychology (which I'm very much interested in), has tons of activities and clubs and such, and is the home of the best basketball team in the world after all....Hmm.....So the bottom line is, after recovering from a state of shock, I decided to go visit it after all. Even if I don't go there, it'll be an experience at least (though a rather scary one I'll admit...). I'm going next month, so I'll let you know how it goes (if I survive to tell the tale).....haha just kidding ;)
*A few weeks ago I went to Gatlinburg with my youth group, and it was pretty awesome (but rather crazy) to say the least....But I'll give you the story on that one later ;)
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Congestion = A Nightmare
This week I've had a little cold. Nothing too major except I couldn't talk for two straight days because of a sore throat (very difficult for me to do I can assure you) and I looked like a complete and total insane maniac. Plus my brothers were not very conducive to my recovery by shrieking loudly, running around the house, and pounding on the drums when I was trying to sleep (you'd think they'd be more considerate, but I've learned not to expect too much from brothers..). Anyways, last night, however, was NOT fun. I thought I was all over my cold, but I woke up with my ear throbbing so bad I thought it was going to pop off my head. I lay there, writhing in pain, for a few minutes debating whether or not I should go wake up my mom. Normally I don't like to wake people up from their beauty sleep unless the house is on fire, I'm covered in snakes, or I'm just plain dying. The pain was so dang bad, however, that I stumbled out of bed. I figured I probably wasn't dying, but I didn't want to take any chances....
After explaining all this to my mom, she got up to get me some ear drops and a heating pad. Unfortunately, at this point my stomach started hurting really bad and I felt like I was going to hurl at any moment. Plus the world started spinning wildly and my ears started ringing. I wasn't sure what this signified but I knew it wasn't good. I have a deathly fear of fainting so I began to panic over the idea of fainting, which didn't help matters one bit. "Mom!" I said rather frantically. "I think I'm going to faint." My mom told me to get straight back to bed, so I lurched down the hallway wondering if I was going to pull through and wishing I hadn't eaten all that popcorn right before bed. I lay there for a while, and finally the nausea passed as did the ear pain. Let me assure you, though, it was some of the WORST pain I've ever had in my life and my ear still hurts a little bit as we speak. Apparently all that congestion from my cold went straight to my ear cause it feels full of something (I don't really want to think about what at the moment...). It feels better today though so hopefully it'll be all right soon. I really can't take this being sick much longer. For a workaholic, sitting around trying to recover from a cold and doing *gasp* nothing is a horrible nightmare that should never be contemplated. Scary stuff....
Later :)
After explaining all this to my mom, she got up to get me some ear drops and a heating pad. Unfortunately, at this point my stomach started hurting really bad and I felt like I was going to hurl at any moment. Plus the world started spinning wildly and my ears started ringing. I wasn't sure what this signified but I knew it wasn't good. I have a deathly fear of fainting so I began to panic over the idea of fainting, which didn't help matters one bit. "Mom!" I said rather frantically. "I think I'm going to faint." My mom told me to get straight back to bed, so I lurched down the hallway wondering if I was going to pull through and wishing I hadn't eaten all that popcorn right before bed. I lay there for a while, and finally the nausea passed as did the ear pain. Let me assure you, though, it was some of the WORST pain I've ever had in my life and my ear still hurts a little bit as we speak. Apparently all that congestion from my cold went straight to my ear cause it feels full of something (I don't really want to think about what at the moment...). It feels better today though so hopefully it'll be all right soon. I really can't take this being sick much longer. For a workaholic, sitting around trying to recover from a cold and doing *gasp* nothing is a horrible nightmare that should never be contemplated. Scary stuff....
Later :)
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Haha
Life can be incredibly strange. So strange in fact that it's downright funny. Some of my most interesting life observations come from looking back on the past and then seeing how much my perspective has changed since then. For example, about a year ago this month my mom dropped a bombshell on me. We were going to be moving....Instead of being the rational person that I am and taking the time to think through this announcement, I immediately freaked out.
Me: "WHAT THE HECK?!?! Are you kidding me???? This is gonna mess up and ruin my life!!!! I'm gonna be miserable and hate my life!!! How can you do this to me???? This is a nightmare!!!! AUGH!!!!!" (Exit stage left in a furious huff).
Now, I realize what an idiot I was. Okay I wasn't really an idiot seeing as how there was no way I could have known how good moving here could be, but I still should have looked on the positive side instead of acting like a psycho maniac. Moving here has been absolutely AMAZING and I can't imagine not living here now. It was one of the best things that happened to me (who would have thought I'd have been saying that year ago....). So yeah there's an interesting perspective change for ya....
It's also interesting how much my opinion has changed concerning this fluffly white stuff known as snow. As a child, whenever I saw snow I about went wild. I ran outside, acted like a maniac, got coated in wet snow, and ran in freezing but for some strange reason very happy. Now, snow is more of a bother than anything else (no I'm not a Scrooge or anything). It's pretty, I'll grant you that, but seeing as how I don't even get school off for it there's really no point to it. It only keeps me cooped up in the house all day and all my plans get canceled. So I've been pretty frustrated because it's been snowing allll day and it'll probably be snowing more tomorrow so who knows how mad I'll be after it's all over....But hey, no point in fretting about the weather right?
Ttyl
Me: "WHAT THE HECK?!?! Are you kidding me???? This is gonna mess up and ruin my life!!!! I'm gonna be miserable and hate my life!!! How can you do this to me???? This is a nightmare!!!! AUGH!!!!!" (Exit stage left in a furious huff).
Now, I realize what an idiot I was. Okay I wasn't really an idiot seeing as how there was no way I could have known how good moving here could be, but I still should have looked on the positive side instead of acting like a psycho maniac. Moving here has been absolutely AMAZING and I can't imagine not living here now. It was one of the best things that happened to me (who would have thought I'd have been saying that year ago....). So yeah there's an interesting perspective change for ya....
It's also interesting how much my opinion has changed concerning this fluffly white stuff known as snow. As a child, whenever I saw snow I about went wild. I ran outside, acted like a maniac, got coated in wet snow, and ran in freezing but for some strange reason very happy. Now, snow is more of a bother than anything else (no I'm not a Scrooge or anything). It's pretty, I'll grant you that, but seeing as how I don't even get school off for it there's really no point to it. It only keeps me cooped up in the house all day and all my plans get canceled. So I've been pretty frustrated because it's been snowing allll day and it'll probably be snowing more tomorrow so who knows how mad I'll be after it's all over....But hey, no point in fretting about the weather right?
Ttyl
Monday, January 4, 2010
Tired
I'm tired. I'm so tired I can hardly look at the computer screen without my weary head hitting the desk with a hard thunk. Why, you might ask, am I so tired? Well first of all I haven't slept decently for three nights in a row. Last night, when I was about to fall into a calm, peaceful sleep, my dear brother runs into my room and says, "Hannah, I have something for you to fall asleep on." And he then proceeds to tell me a rather long drawn out story while I am sitting there, blinking my eyes because of the sudden explosion of light in the room and wishing I had the power of super strength so I could throw him furiously out of the room...Well he finally left but, wouldn't you know it, I couldn't go back to sleep. I tossed and turned and groaned and thought about how tired I was going to be if I didn't fall asleep which didn't help matters at all. The other two nights were pretty much exactly the same (minus the talkative brother) so right now I'm pretty much a zombie. I think I'll fall asleep tonight though. At least I'd better or I better get used to being nocturnal...
I'm also tired because we started school back today. It went well, but I was really getting the hang of being lazy and sitting around all day doing exactly what I wanted when I wanted to. Now I get to spend a whole lot of time everyday with my good old friend named calculator (physics and precal take up so freaking much of the day) and my brain feels a bit more stretched than it did before. Not to mention summer seems so very far away. I found out a few weeks ago that I get to go to Boston this summer to visit my cousins, so now this semester is going to go by that much slower....*sigh* That's life I suppose.
I'm too tired to write anymore so ttyl ;)
I'm also tired because we started school back today. It went well, but I was really getting the hang of being lazy and sitting around all day doing exactly what I wanted when I wanted to. Now I get to spend a whole lot of time everyday with my good old friend named calculator (physics and precal take up so freaking much of the day) and my brain feels a bit more stretched than it did before. Not to mention summer seems so very far away. I found out a few weeks ago that I get to go to Boston this summer to visit my cousins, so now this semester is going to go by that much slower....*sigh* That's life I suppose.
I'm too tired to write anymore so ttyl ;)
Friday, January 1, 2010
A New Year
Well 2010 is finally here and I have to admit that this fact creeps me out just a tiny bit. For one thing, this is the first time in my life where I can remember every single year of an entire decade. For another thing, I've always viewed 2010 as that far off, momentous year in the misty future when I graduate high school. I never expected this year to ever get here for crying out loud....;) Anyways, I'm trying my best not to think about it too hard and to remember that I'm taking a year off before college (the only things keeping me from having a full scale panic attack).
New Year's Eve was actually pretty fun. I played games with my crazy family for most of the night, and thanks to some of the goings on during said games I will never be able to contemplate black snakes with a straight face ever again (just don't even ask...). ;) I even was able to sit up till midnight and got to watch all the insane maniacs on TV celebrating the start of the New Year (just so you know you couldn't pay me enough money to be at that crowd on New Year's Eve). I'd rather watch the whole affair from the comfort of my living room if you don't mind...
Today we didn't do too much except watch the Rose Bowl Parade (my dear friend introduced me to that as I had, sadly enough, never watched it) and fire a toy rocket. To get things straight this rocket was not my idea whatsoever as I really don't get into such dangerous things. (haha). Like the extremely intelligent person that I am, I sat in the warm, heated car and watched the rest of my family attempt to shoot that dang rocket in the 16 degree weather. That might be their idea of fun, but it sure as heck isn't mine....;) haha
Happy New Year's to everyone and I hope 2010 is amazing for you. I have a feeling it's gonna be a good year....;)
New Year's Eve was actually pretty fun. I played games with my crazy family for most of the night, and thanks to some of the goings on during said games I will never be able to contemplate black snakes with a straight face ever again (just don't even ask...). ;) I even was able to sit up till midnight and got to watch all the insane maniacs on TV celebrating the start of the New Year (just so you know you couldn't pay me enough money to be at that crowd on New Year's Eve). I'd rather watch the whole affair from the comfort of my living room if you don't mind...
Today we didn't do too much except watch the Rose Bowl Parade (my dear friend introduced me to that as I had, sadly enough, never watched it) and fire a toy rocket. To get things straight this rocket was not my idea whatsoever as I really don't get into such dangerous things. (haha). Like the extremely intelligent person that I am, I sat in the warm, heated car and watched the rest of my family attempt to shoot that dang rocket in the 16 degree weather. That might be their idea of fun, but it sure as heck isn't mine....;) haha
Happy New Year's to everyone and I hope 2010 is amazing for you. I have a feeling it's gonna be a good year....;)
Thursday, December 31, 2009
2009
This year has been crazy. Bad things have happened, good things have happened, and a lot of things have happened in between....Here are some of the more memorable things about this year/events that have stood out to me....
*I MOVED
*I started senior year. Scariness.
*A few relationships close to me fell through the cracks, but then I found new, stronger relationships aftewards. I can't imagine life without some of the people I have met this year...
*I found a youth group I love and can feel comfortable in.
*I discovered that it is possible to live without chocolate ice cream.
*I got a new voice teacher and already performed twice this semester (yes I was terrified).
*I searched for a job and failed miserably.
*I lost my wonderful, amazing-beyond-words grandmother to breast cancer 11/20.
*I struggled to deal with change.
*I decided on an amazing college.
*I finally got to see New Moon and it was freaking AWESOME.
*I discovered that, only sometimes, what you think sucks and is bad for you turns out to be just what you need...
There's a lot more, but I have to stop somewhere, right? =]
I have high hopes for 2010, and I hope it can live up to them....
*I MOVED
*I started senior year. Scariness.
*A few relationships close to me fell through the cracks, but then I found new, stronger relationships aftewards. I can't imagine life without some of the people I have met this year...
*I found a youth group I love and can feel comfortable in.
*I discovered that it is possible to live without chocolate ice cream.
*I got a new voice teacher and already performed twice this semester (yes I was terrified).
*I searched for a job and failed miserably.
*I lost my wonderful, amazing-beyond-words grandmother to breast cancer 11/20.
*I struggled to deal with change.
*I decided on an amazing college.
*I finally got to see New Moon and it was freaking AWESOME.
*I discovered that, only sometimes, what you think sucks and is bad for you turns out to be just what you need...
There's a lot more, but I have to stop somewhere, right? =]
I have high hopes for 2010, and I hope it can live up to them....
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