Last night I went to bed at about the usual time, actually pretty tired. I was sure I would go right to sleep, but of course everytime I think that it normally turns out exactly the opposite. This time it certainly did. For the life of me I just could not go to sleep. I tried everything. I tried counting to 1,000 in my head, but I didn't get very far cause it was pretty dang boring and my mind kept wandering. I tried sleeping in about every position possible (except upside down) and tried relaxing every muscle in my body. That didn't work too well either.
When I finally did nod off (I had no clue how long it took me to do so) I had one of those horrible nightmares where you try to scream but your voice is dead and all that comes out is a thin croaking sound. I jolted awake from that at about 2:30 AM I believe, and had to lie there for a few minutes and remind myself that it was just a dream. (I was starting to freak out at this point a bit). I started to freak out even more when, try as I might, I just couldn't go back to sleep. The thing with sleep, is the more you think about it the lower your chances are of dropping off to sleep. I knew this very well but I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that I was getting hardly any sleep and that if I didn't nod off soon I was going to be a zombie come the morning. By this time I was starting to feel sort of nauseous, and that made me panic even more because a stomach bug's going around. (If you hadn't noticed this by now I am very prone to panic attacks). To top it all off I started getting really itchy, dry skin so every few seconds I had to interrupt trying to go to sleep to scratch it.
By this time I was getting really annoyed, and was starting to get kind of hyper. So I got out of bed and went to look at the hall clock, which unfortunately read 3:15 AM. I was about ready to jump through the roof in frustration, but of course that really wouldn't help my problem any so I refrained from that. I finally started back to my room, but on the way back rammed into the door (seeing as how it was really dark) causing a rather loud noise I was really worried everyone would wake up and think there were burglars around or something, but I waited anxiously a few minutes and no one did. Soo I crawled back in bed and lay there for a while trying not to think about not being able to go to sleep, and finally I dozed off. I have no clue how much sleep I actually got, but maybe more than I think since I'm actually not too tired right now. But I'm not exactly real hyper either I'll say that....Hopefully tonight will be better. It can't be much worse.
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Oh wow, I feel your pain! I haaaate nights like that! Some nights I have the exact same problem, where no matter what I do, I just can't get to sleep and I don't end up falling asleep until like, 1:00. And I've had dreams like that before where I try to scream but no sound comes out. Those are so scary!
Okay good I'm glad I'm not the only one!! lol. And yes those dreams are horrible!! My heart was beating so fast afterwards....ehe
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